Yesterday I spent World Mental Health Day having a self-care day, which seems
appropriate. In reality you ought to be good to yourself every day of course, but
that’s just not plausible for most of us, so for those who need it, it’s important
to put aside special days – or even just some hours or moments if that’s what
you can spare – to prioritise feeling good and being kind to yourself.
The reason I need self-care days is basically down to anxiety. My
approach to controlling my anxiety these days is preventative, because once it’s
there it’s basically a straitjacket and the more you struggle the tighter it
winds around you. I know the circumstances that set off my anxiety and when I start
to eliminate them – coffee instead of food on an empty stomach, alcohol, being
disorganised, running out of money, lying – my quality of life gets measurably
better. Other anxiety triggers are unavoidable – guilt, emotional friction, fear
of violence, bad health, running out of money – while some episodes have no
tangible origin whatsoever and you just have to have your tactics to hand for
when they arrive.
Two things are definitely true for me: the more I look after my body
– yoga, exercise, sex, good food, less alcohol and caffeine – the less anxiety
I will have to go through; and the more I look after my mind – yoga, reading, learning,
meditation, art, new experience, conversation – the less anxiety I get and the better
able I feel to deal with the way I live and the world I have to live in. Self-care
days help me to sustain all of that.
What my self-care days are
Necessary.
All mine.
An opportunity to think about my mental and physical health.
An opportunity to learn from people going through similar.
A chance to think how far I’ve come.
Truly lovely times.
What my self-care days are
not
‘Treat days’. It shouldn’t be a big treat to want to go for a walk for
no reason, or make a 5 hour playlist just for yourself, or make imaginary
AirBnB wish lists. They’re just simple pleasures that I deserve and that harm
nobody.
‘An excuse to bunk off work’. I’m a freelancer, that means I work
hard and I work long hours, but I work them when I want to. Also there ain’t
nothing wrong with bunking off work anyway.
A day to get over hangovers. My self-care days are all about
improving on my default condition, not struggling to get back to an emotional ‘norm’
after self-abuse. If you’re only ever recovering, then you’re never improving!
Things I like to do on a
self-care day
Ride my bike with no destination and in any weather.
Notice really small things.
Meditate.
Take ages to do things.
Watch, read, listen to bell hooks. She is my intellectual icon, she
theorises love as a survival tactic, she is teachable, she makes me think about
my own political accountability, she loves conversation as a method of teaching.
All this sustains my brain, I am very grateful to her.
Listen to every single version of a single song that I can find.
Watch TED Talks, listen to On Being.
Yoga, either at home or at a class if I feel like facing people.
Classes are great because people pay attention to you in a caring way and
everyone is there to feel good.
Reciting Victoria Wood.
Trying to learn ‘Billy in the Darbies’ off by heart.
Getting in touch with friends I’ve not seen for ages.
Comedy comedy comedy.
Long baths.
Give money to charity if I have it.
Re-read things I love.
Write fiction.
Make really insanely optimistic plans for the future.
Things I don’t do on a
self-care day
Shopping.
Drugs.
Check messages if I don’t want to.
Read the news.
Worry about money.
Waste time.
I hope you gave yourself some quality time on World Mental Health
Day. Try a self-care day, they are fun to curate, fun to do, and have seriously
good repercussions. Put one on the calendar, you’re worth it.